I know I haven't been around but I got kind of overwhelmed with school for a while there. Things are going good. I really love it here. I have made a couple friends here that I can talk to during and between classes. They are both nice girls.
I am very excited to be getting out of my first semester!!!! I ahve never made it out of a first semester before. This is my third time trying to go to college and I always failed or had to quit for one reason or another. I guess I sort of felt like this wasn't really real until I made it out of my first semester. I think there was a little part of me deep inside that didn't think I could do it. That I would either fail or life would rear it's ugly head and snatch my dreams away like it has done so many times before. I couldn't let myself be happy for the longest time. I was so afraid of letting myself be happy and then having it all taken away again. I am so tired of going through that.
Things have been hard. School has been hard. But I got through it. That is the important thing. And I will keep getting through it. Like I keep telling myself..Everything will be ok.
My Mom and Dad will be home on Sat. I am looking forward to seing them and Little Buddy..but I am not looking forward to sharing my house. :( My Dad gives me no respect at all. Treats me like I don't exist when he is there. I hate it.
Well..I need to get going but I will be back. Now that I seem to be relaxing a little..there is alot I need to talk about in here.