luvz_daniel's Journal

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I am 28 years old and I have been living in AZ for about two and a half years now. A couple weeks ago I moved out of my apartment and into my parents home. They left to travel full-time in their moterhome again. So I have this nice house all to myself now.

I have been going through a tough time though lately with the cramping from the Endometriosis. I had surgery and my doctor said the my famale organs were so damaged that I would never be able to have children. The pain is still there and I am going to have to have a hystroectomy eventually...but I am putting it off as long as possible.
Finding out that I can never have children has completly broken my heart..or what was left of it. That was all I ever wanted out of life. To be a mother. My whole idea of what my future holds has been turned upside down. I honestly don't know how I am going to get through this.

I get really moody sometimes so if you read my journal be prepared for that. I struggle with Major Depression and I am Bipolar II..so you never know how I am going to feel. I haven't been very happy lately because of the physical pain I have been in, but I have been going to a partial hospitalization program for the past couple months and that has helped alot. It feels good to be able to get out and make some friends and feel busy again.

I have become obsessed with cleaning and my inability to do it, lately.. I want so much to better myself and my life but my brain is always working against me..so I am constantly struggling with that.
I am a member of www.flylady.net..and I am trying to learn to love myself enough to be able to take care of myself and my home better.

Right now I am just doing my best to make it though each day and continue to build some kind of a life for myself.

A little bit more about me...
I'm 28 years old
I have a cat..his name is Speck
I just started going to art school to get my Bachlors Degree in Interior Design.

My obsessions...and Fandoms

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**Why I started this community**

After suffering from Major Depression for the past ten years..I have found that something that always helped me get through each day was reading. I read lots of motivating and inspiring books and magazines by many different authors and I have created this community to have a place to share the wisdom I have found in these great books.

**Join Me!**

If you have any articles..quotes..or have read something wise or inspiring concerning any of the many interests of this community and you would like to share..please join and let me know! Or if you simply enjoyed something you read here..comment and tell me about it! Just be sure to credit the source of your info. I would love to know if others are getting something from this community too!

I have recently started making icons so I would like to credit the wonderful people who were willing to share their creations..



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